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Wednesday 30 May 2007

It’s finally Wednesday! Hahas. Excited because I’m going to take my attendance at Phuture later at night. Hahas! I’ve been taking in lots of fruits & vegetables these few days. Trying to factor in more exercises in my daily routine. Actually wanted to go Sentosa for tanning & beach volleying, but my kaki not “available” (Read “Inconvenient”). Hahas. But I gather it’s ok, hees. Can go again next week I hope? Weekend has been great for me! Bought a new phone, Sony Ericsson K550i & traded in my N72 (Pink). Cool! I love the phone so much! Hahas. I had been so frustrated with my previous phone, as it was really very lag. Slow. Retarded. You name it! Hahs. The new phone serves me better, cos the functions are there! Actually, no la. It’s cos the dealer uploaded the whole R&B/Hip hop folder into my memory card so now I get to listen to so many songs! Hahas. Only thing was that many data from my previous phone are lost at the same time. Cos I think got some problem with the previous memory card? And also, all those SMS that I keep are also lost as they were all saved in phone memory! =S Nahs. But it’s ok. Time to start a new chapter of my life. Hee.

Went for movie with KF on Saturday… Blades of Glory! Very funny show lor, all of you should watch it. Hahas. Enjoyed his company & boy, I don’t really wish to say this but I have to say… KF’s the sweetest guy ever! Yes, literally. Hahas. There was this particular fragrance on him that I thought was really nice. Blah~ When I asked him if he used fragrance/ whether it was his shower gel, he told me it was his “natural flavour”… wad, nan ren wei. Hahas! I almost flipped when I heard it la. Lol.

After dinner at Mr Bean’s café, we strolled towards Esplanade (yes! My favourite place! Hahas). Halfway there, we passed by the war memorial & Mr T asked to go there. So we went. He’s very interesting lor, cos I have passed by that place so many times, never really halted my steps to explore that place under the twilight before. Mmm. Interesting. Hahas. I remember he was telling me about the 7 core values of NS. & the 8th, which was lyk, “You can do anything; Just don’t get caught”. For that moment I was lyk, “Duh! Why are you telling me this… Sounds wrong. Lol”. But nahs, anw, we moved on to Esplanade… Then we walked to Cavenagh Bridge (yes, that’s the bridge in front of Fullerton Hotel & Maybank Tower) & chatted the night away. Ha. Talked about “Casper & his friends” (Read ghosts), our schooldays, friends, etc. Quite a chatty guy. Lol.
Nice guy he is. At least, he’s really gentlemanly? Was already very tired but he still sent me home. Woah. Not bad. (add pts. ha) Hahas. makes a good guy for keeps maybe? Bleah- Hees.

Enough about Sat! Talk about Sun! hahas. Went out with my beloved Kareen & we had a long long long long chat! Pretty nice & comfy. Actually went to buy gift for the guy she likes, but in the end like can’t really find? Buying a gift for a guy is hard, especially when the both of you aren’t together (yet). Lol. & sometimes, it’s lyk you’re afraid you spend a bomb on his pressie & in the end he’s not (gonna b) your guy after all. On the other hand, we gurls may nt want to just buy anything for the guys we like. Else it’s lyk so, shui bian? Yup yup. Argh. Having random thoughts again. Hahas. Pardon me if my sentences are flying all over. Oops. =P

Shall talk more abt dis gr8 fren of mine, Kareen. Fair lady doing Communications & Media Management (CMM for short & pls correct me if I de-acronymed wrongly…hee!) in Temasek Polytechnic. Only child. Hates veggies (while I love veggies). so much so that she'll painfully pick out her bean sprouts from her fried prawn mee. Hahas. Been through ups & downs wimme I think? Was from Bendemeer Pri Sch & met her in Holy Innocents’ High in 2001. We were pretty close for about 2 years? Then in sec 3 we entered different classes (due to different subject combinations; she was just next door though) & bcos I was pretty active in the Student Council, we were starting to drift apart as we spent less time together… But nevertheless, we still like hung out together whenever possible. Found new frens along the way, but still stuck out with each other as well. Hahs, n I’m seriously thankful for that. Lol. & s expected, the close frens I haf in life ryte nw were nt from my graduating cls, bt fr my sec 1 cls. Hahas.

Oh. I rmb kareen was a pretty smart gurl. Tink her psle was 24+? Yups. Smart ho? Ha. N she was pretty good in her math too. That type can score full marks in tests one..hahas.Hey bt u noe wad? (I’ve all along teased her) HER HANDWRITING SUCKS! hahas.. like small ants… but widely spaced out. Can u imagine that? Lol. She doesn’t write cursive, so now I wonder how she manages to do English literature. Hahs. How to scribble during tests? Aiyo. Amazing, gurl.

Actually I think seriously we only got much closer after I graduated fr sec sch. Cos in sec sch I had responsibilities & couldn’t rly play/fool ard wif dem lyk I used to (in sec 1 & 2)… so aft graduation, I was more or less back to the cheeky & norty gurl dat I used to be. Hahas. & now, we got even closer as we share common hobbies! Hahas. Shopping, eating well, n most significantly, CLUBBING! Lol. Ok la. Both of us like the same genre of music so u dun c us pulling each other out fr various rooms to go to the room playing dat genre of music we lyk. Hahas. Takes good care of each other when either of us get drunk (I’d prefer calling it “get too high”). Different traits we have. While I’d hop around & laugh n stuff, Kareen will just stand in a corner & lyk stone. Ey, no. it’s lyk, sleeping while standing up? Hahas. But usually we get high at different times, though we may drink at the same time. I get “too high” much earlier than her, so she takes care of me first, den aft I’m sober, it’ll b her turn to b seh (drunken state). Hahas. Den it’ll b my turn to takkire of her dy. Funny ryte? Ey, not so easy to find such a match u noe. Lol.

Alryte la. Think this entry is freaking long.. argh. Update again…..! =)

=happy vesak=


+every cheeky, Jerica+

Friday 25 May 2007

My regular clubber friends are going clubbing tonight, but I don’t reckon I will be there. Heh. Ever since I fell so terribly ill with high fever of 40 deg. that I was shivering lyk a mad dog 2 weeks ago, I’ve become pretty homely; or probably lazy after resting & resting & realizing that I was all along so deprived of rest? Hahas. Lazy to go out. Would prefer lazing around at home, watch TV programmes, or probably chat on the phone/ MSN. Mmm… Hahas, but actually the primary reason is because I have got a tuition class tomorrow. [Argh. Learnt last week that I have to be more responsible than what I am now. Oops.]

Am so happy it’s finally Friday! Get to rest, slack, take a break from my work. What’s more, with the Great Singapore Sale now raving… Oh man! Hehs. I wanna go spreeeeeeeeeeee! Been sometime since I last splurged. Hahas. High time! Lol.

Went MOS yst. Oh man. Shared a juggie wif reen & I was so freaking drunk la! Shucks. Unglam. Hahas. The worst thing was I was already pretty drunk by say 2315h when people are only just reaching? Hahas. Anyway, reen & I left in a cab at around 0000h; reached home ard 0030h. Actually I had wanted to stay on, because was so seh at that point of time when we left that I hadn’t been dancing yet. Yucks, hate myself for that. Cos I had wanted to dance? Aiyo. I shall be a good gurl & not drink so much next tym I club. Hahas. Probably limit to 2 glasses. Hahas. Seriously, I’d prefer Chivas rather than those house pours. Doh. But someone footed the bill for the jug… So… Well, in any case, I really regret drinking so much (or fast). Should just take skyjuice. Hahas.

But anyways, dozen thanks to Kareen for taking care of me! Hahas. And probably like other friends (Joel & gang) who were there to chuckle at my nonsensical state? Thanks ar. Duh- Lol.

Anw I was really pissed at this friend of mine. Amazing Grace. He asked me down to MOS but could not be bothered to stay around. Well, not that I long for the company… But, it’s only polite, isn’t it? Dah- just let things be lor. Ha. I’m prepared to bo-chup him also. Oh man. Drop all those pretense & get a life dong (as in ding dong?)! Yucks. Seriously la. Picture this – You turned up at your friend’s request & your friend disappeared so that he can be with his friends, and even asked your other friend to take care of you? What’s more, he dusen even bother to contact you aft dat, when u’re leaving for home, in a drunken state. How GENTLMANLY, and thanks but no thanks boy. To think all those sweet-nothings were just but an act. Eeeks. Think this person is probably the most GENTLEMANLY guy I’ve ever come across with! Hahas. Blah-

Nahs. Shall just drop it. Time to move on~! =P I shall choose not to be bothered. Hahas. bleahs. Shall update again soon! =)

Would you keep your virginity for your future spouse in this modern age, where lust & temptations abound & leaves people asking for more; where incest & infidelity are so often ubiquitous?

Is it worth holding on to your virginity especially just for your future spouse, only to realize subsequently that He/She isn’t that special one that you really loved? By then, you could have missed out on sharing that special bond (if you so call it?) with your ex-partner(s), who could have been that special someone you have really loved, & could have taken you for that exhilarating ride of your life……

Recently I’ve been pondering over such thoughts. I wonder if it’s all right… Have actually thought about all these while growing up, but now that I’ve been to places & be exposed to the openness of our society, somehow, I can’t help but ponder over such issues. Sex. Lust. Love. The kind of connection among them that has evolved in our age has become so vague; yet intricately complex that one could possibly get lost in all these thoughts.

Having grown up in a catholic mission school with annual school missions to educate & reinforce upon us the values of our sexuality & identities, I must admit that I’ve pretty much gained insights from these programmes. And boy, am I thankful for that. From these lessons, I’ve learnt to protect myself & to reconcile the variances in different people; i.e., to embrace differences.

I’ve held strong values & placed strong emphasis on the sacredness of being chaste; for your Virginity is the most precious gift you can ever give to someone (you love). Love-making should never be seen as a commodity, should it…? It should still be what it originated as – The physical connection & non-verbal expression of Love between couples; Reproduction of Mankind; Creation of happiness (Children? Hahas), etc etc etc…

Not that I’m trying to preach or impose my thoughts on anybody, but all in all, the desecration of the sanctity of Love & Sex pretty much saddens me. At the rate things are going, the degradation of moral values should supposedly be something which we should be concerned about, especially with the well-known belief, “Men give Love for Sex; Women give Sex in exchange for Love”. Don’t you think? I wouldn’t know how true that is, but in this era, 9 out of 10 of the people that I come into contact with are probably “goners” (as my friend Kareen puts it)… How sad (but true)… But then again, who actually cares…? Do you?

On the other hand, I think I’m ok with this kinda behaviour/ culture. I mean, I can accept this among my friends (although I would probably be shocked initially if my close friends do tell me that they’re no longer a “v”?) & would probably find them intriguing. Hahas. Curiosity…
Wednesday 23 May 2007

2nd blog of the day! =)

whee.. Jerica's in a good mood. hahas. though I didn't drink. bleahs-

been under the mercy of mood swings these few days. aww shucks. it happens every month; I'm so sick of it. one moment I'm grinning from ear to ear; the next, i'm feeling down & blue . terrible. PMS. argh.

I'm so happy to have a blog! =) Working at UPS is enriching, but tiring... Tiring bcos the wk is pretty sedentary, so I often hafta struggle to stay awake, especially after lunch. hahas. So what I usually do is to move around, talk to my colleagues, etc so that I can stay awake. hahas! recently picked up a new habit... Instead of binging on snacks, I bring apples to work... N I make it a point to eat at elast 1 apple a day! =) Healthy Jerica makes Happy Jerica. muahaha~

Jerica has a really really weird habit (or otherwise)! realise I need to move my mouth; else I'll fall asleep... As in, either talk/chat or eat. LOL. Tiring ryte? hahas. wad nonsense. hey but it's true...

So many random thoughts coming to my mind now. hahas. Love, Family, Friends, Work, Clubbing, Uni, Finances, my future, etc etc etc. Oh man... system crashing soon. LOL. I wanna get into Banking & Finance in Uni, and if possible, take up double specialisation in both Banking & Finance, as well as Hospitality & Tourism Management. The latter has always been what I wanted before I went into JC... Mmm... In any case, I sure believe Business is fun! =) Hope this passion of mine can keep me going.

My sister has somehow become a source of inspiration to me. hahas. She was from Temasek Polytechnic n worked her way into NTU Business School (where I'm matriculating)... It's really inspiring isn't it! I mean, from poly to Uni is really tough, & I am actually pretty proud of my sister (although we don't usually talk at home)...

Relationship with my parents hasn't been going smooth of late... Cos my parents starting to nag at me & try to impose curfew on me... They feel that I club too much. To me, it's a form of unwinding after a hard week's work... But to them, they feel that I'm a gurl, shouldn't be seen too often at such places. I try to understand their point, but somehow I'd wish my brother & parents can try to understand me & see things from my point of view too...

Seriously, all I want is to dance & shake that boogie (I'm just joking.. I don't really shake my ass.. I hop =P), make friends, chill out with friends... But they're just worried about me... I mean, it's not as though I am so irresponsible to skip work the next day ryte? I do worry about my health & I do learn to take care... N the most disturbing thing nagging on my mind is that previously my parents don't really care abt where I go, what tym I'd b home, etc... but of late, they've been particularly worried & keep nagging... Infuriates me at times (but i try to assure them & udnerstand their concerns); cos I just feel that i've suddenly lost my freedom... *sobs.

But to say the truth, i'm ok la. At least they still do listen to me & I know my mum is always there for me. I don't have the habit of lying to her (& everyone else). If I club/ stay out late, I'll tell her so that she'll not worry so much. Simple as that. [Seriously I hate lying (& liars) bcos for every lie you make, you've got to tell more lies to cover up that lie. That makes you a big liar, which is no good. I value & trust in honesty. hees.] And also bcos my mummy can b a real nag at times. hahas.

In any case, hope to spend more tym wif my family & beloved friends, continue to communicate more wif each other & cherish them lyk there's no tmr! hee hee.

*yawn... gotta go slp dy... Gg MOS tmr nyte. hahas. Go catch some precious sleep... Good nyte!*

More updates again~ blah!

Ever Cheeky,
Jerica =D

*Hold my hands, Take me there...*

First time Jerica's using blogspot. hahas. at the age of under-20 (time to keep my age under wraps.lol. i dun bother.) It's gonna be fun! =P

Used myspace.com previously but dropped (read abandoned) that blog after a while... I've decided to pen down my feelings, track my thoughts, etc. Because feelings are one of the most wonderful things bestowed upon us human beings. Amazing.

What should I blog abt? I ain't got the faintest idea. Ha. Should I do an introduction? Muahahas. Actually can be found on friendster, so ... maybe I'll skip that part.

I'm really taking time to enjoy & revel with the remaining time I have (sounds pessimistic; ha) before U starts. Yes, going to be matriculated into NBS (Nanyang Technological University's Nanyang Business School) soon. =P

On the one hand, I'm really all revved up for Uni life... All the things I'm gonna do, experience, taste, try, have fun, enjoy, slog through, etc etc etc... These are all gonna make/mould me into what I'll be. But on the other hand, mmm... I'm gonna miss my home I guess? (yup, intending to stay in the Halls/ hostel) And yea, probably gonna be so busy that I'll miss out on alot of people, stuffs (which I don't hope to be doing). argh. What a terrible thought.

Really don't know what Uni brings or what the future holds for me, so I gotta really tread carefully... But in any case, I aspire to be a career woman/ good homemaker? I wanna love my family well, but also be financially independent. Oh man, all the adrenaline in performing in all those challenging tasks. Cool! =) I wanna be able to cook (well) for my guy, & I wanna read the market & rake in the bucks too. Mmm.. I'm pretty much a "xiao nu ren", but also ambitious & have my personal goals. =) Split personality? Maybe. hahas.

I can probably go on & on about my ideals, etc, because it's been donkey years since I last penned down my thoughts! But... Shall update more next tym I guess? Hope this blog dusen end up lyk my myspace blog. Hahas. Lapses here n there, n finally I gave up...

Alryte, shall blog again soon =P

* Longing for someone to hold me tyte. Take my hands. Lead the way.*